Last One !!!!!

Well it has been a long semester the papers were hard, the 8 o'clocks were killer and the conversations were very interesting. The semester is finally coming to an end i'm happy but the crazy part is i can't wait till next semester i'm looking forward to the classes and the new roommates. This semester has been a roller coaster.  As much as I thought i would hate Writing blogs but i enjoyed the entire process. It was awesome to be able to read other peoples blogs and for them to be able to read mine. Last Semester me and a lot of my other classmates decided that we were all going to take Mr. Sweeney again this semester it's cool that he makes all of his students feel comfortable in his class his class is like our safe place it's a place where some of us can say whats on our hearts without the fear of being ridiculed and talked about. I can't wait till i can Have the class and don't have to write three Research papers. Well............until next time guys

"The House I Live In"

Today in class the reading choice was about the drug war and if we believe that the punishments were to extreme. For some reason this topic took me to a place that i would never like to return. It saddened me deeply to hear some peoples response to the subject, I respect everyone's opinion and i'm glad that our class touched on this subject. But I can't lie some of things being done pissed me off, it's as if they couldn't care less about things happening everyday. It sucks so bad because we are always told to give the presenter the floor and to pay attention but some just were being very rude and doing their own side thing. Any-who i just had to get that off my chest, the presentation made me really want to see that documentary, for me it hit home in a way that I wasn't really willing to talk about but at one point it became to much and i began to tear up. I'm pretty sure the people who noticed was wondering what was going on in my head so I guess I'll try to explain. When I was around 8 years old my father became addicted to drugs, he was losing out on a lot he became absent in me and my siblings life, my mom left him, his family turned there backs on him, and to top it off he was caught with just enough drugs to have him put away for we seemed to be a century in my young eyes. Because of this he became a felon which meant when he did get out there would be no better life waiting for him. Although it was his decision and I completely understand that I think people fail to realize that my father had a problem and for that he will forever be seen in a negative light. When he got out he went to live with a women he had been seeing for a while because he couldn't get a job and because of that he couldn't get his own place all because of that one mistake. He also couldn't pay child support which meant that he was going back to jail. People don't understand how this one thing could cause i trickle down effect into so much more. This topic was interesting and in a way i feel sorry for the people who didn't care to listen and learn. 

Well today is saturday the 13 of April and im really bored. It's a pretty day out everyone is gone and this sucks..... lol i say all that to say it's crazy how earlier in life like maybe our junior and senior year in high school I thought( as i think most teens around that time thought) that once i come to college my life would be jam pack filled with fun. But it's the complete opposite, i mean of course there is some fum involved but i just think things become so much more important like studying for a big test, writing papers :( , and doing homework. In high school homework takes at the max an hour now it seems to take me that long just to do my math homework.College is just so much pressure.For me im the first person in my family to go to college so they seem to hold me on this educational pedistal, sometimes it feels good and others times i just don't wonna be there. But im glad im here and im ready to take my life to a whole different level ......CAN'T WAIT  !!!!!!!!!!!

So today I have just been kind of thinking about my career and my life and were the road im on will take me. I've been kind of worried about not knowing where I'm headed but I 100% know what i wonna be. Being seen as an adult in the worlds eyes is way to scary to think about or even deal with. One day i hope to be a Neonatal Nurse Practitioner with my own house and family. I'm actually scared to go into the real world and i think its hard for alot of people to admit that to themselves and others. It's crazy to know that within the next 5 years most of us will be working takink care of ourselves and maybe even children. It's weird that im in college and im doing good, i have always wanted to go to college but i was never one hundred percent sure it was going to happen my determination and will to push myself to the limit has gotten me here and i hope it will take me further. 

April 3 2013 a day to remember in English

Well today in my English class we had a story we were supposed to read by Dr. Seuss called "Butter Battle Book" this story much like all of his stories have a deeper  meaning. This one we chalked up to be about war and the effect it has has one its surroundings. This conversation led to a whole slew of sub topics. The one that stood out most to me was "open mindedness." This phrase by its self is a confusing and difficult phrase. My definition of being open minded is knowing and trusting what you believe but being willing to at least listen to the opinion of others with the intent to learn. Everyone can claim to be open minded but there are very few that actually are. I sometimes claim to be open minded but as i think about it i realize that I'm not. Lol as they say" the first step is admitting you have a problem. " I will listen to your thoughts and beliefs but at the same time I most likely won't take anything away from the conversation. I also believe it doesn't work when the two opposing thoughts try to bang their beliefs into each others head. Part of debating is listening because if u always want to have the final say and don't let your opposition get a word in edge wise neither one of you will learn anything because eventually they will shut you loud obnoxious self out. Well i guess i learned a lot about  myself all before 9 o'clock in the morning. Classes like this are the classes that make me happy I chose to take  Mr.Sweeney again this semester.